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/ Friday, July 31, 2009

I LOVE AVRIL!

Today was a tiring day. Had to carry around my uniform cover bag to mosque back and forth. I went to school wearing band uniform. Actually i plan to change at school but kind of lazy. Anyway my house is like beside school only. Anyway had photo taking with the band today! It was a memorial photo taking! I mean at least something interesting happen today compared to any other normal days. Alright that's all

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/ Thursday, July 30, 2009

Aaaahhh! My stamina is getting weaker and weaker every moment. I've been going to the gym lately but it's been awhile since i last train my stamina. I used to jog every night but lately i've been busy so i just did some push ups at home. I realise i tire easily. Tuesday had P.E. I played floorball with my classmates. I realise that i was worn out not even half of the game. Aaarrhh!!

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/ Tuesday, July 28, 2009

It's been awhile since I last updated. Today i made a important move that will change everything. I somehow sacrifice my friendship with GuoHong so that he would hate me and be on Rabiatul's side. I don't know.I hope that it's not a wrong choice. I just don't want him and Rabiatul to have an issue like me. It's a painful feeling and I don't want others to be affected. I'm doing this for his own good.

Just stay strong Danial. Believe in yourselves. Everything happens for a reason. I just have to live with it and hope that at the end of the road , you'll find what you've been looking for. I know that day will come. I just know.

I just can't lie to myself. I can't deny that i still have feelings for her. Sometimes just seeing my friends smile and making sure they are happy , it's enough for me to be happy. =) This is me. I just love to make people happy even if it takes getting rid of me but deep inside my heart , i'll always be there and stand for what is right and do whatever it takes to protect the ones i love!

- P.S I love you

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/ Saturday, July 25, 2009

I LOVE THIS PIC!

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/ Friday, July 24, 2009

Voted no.1 choice for MEN'S HEALTH MAGAZINE!

my visit to NUH for my check up.

I wasn't quite ready when this picture was taken. GOTCHA!

Today was a fine day i guess. Nothing really interesting pop up today. Today i had SS essay test. Well i finish it kind of fast. The wonderful thing about it is i memorise the whole essay 5 mins before the school begins. Cool or what? Today Mrs Foo's mom had her last breathe. My class went absolute silent when she told us that her phone call was from her sister in the middle of the lesson. She had been telling us stories about her mom was admitted to hospital a coupe of times. Her mom was 94 years old. That's long. Well rest in peace Mrs Foo's mother.

Anyway after my friday prayers i rush back home to change because I had an appointment at NUH for my health check up. Well i've been having respiratory problems for example sudden choke and i can't breathe! It's really scary at times but my spirit is still strong in me. I will live my life to the fullest. =)

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/ Thursday, July 23, 2009

It starts off with Biology! Aaaahh! Got sent out of class by Mrs Wong because i didn't do her work. At least i'm not the only one but i got reasonable explaination for it! I was sick the other night. I planned to do a lot of things but too bad my health forbids me.

This morning when i was about to drink my glass of water for breakfast , suddenly my brain felt so painful! It's really really painful! I pulled my hair to release the pain. After a few seconds , the pain was gone. Then after that i started to cough. I don't know is it got to do with my respiratory problems. Anyways tomorrow i'll be going to NUH for my appointment.

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/ Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I woke up kind of late today. I was so tired yesterday night. I had flu so i went to sleep a bit earlier than usual. It was a lovely morning when i saw heard a fight at my carpark. I stood there for a moment to make sure there will be no hands on fighting. Luckily i did not. So i started to increase my pace to school.

I got back my Maths test paper. I was kind of dissapointed with my marks. I got 76%. The previous test i only got 56%. I was really dissapointed with my self because i know i can do better than this. Nevermind , all I have to do is to work hard the second round. I started to fell ill during recess. Not down with fever but flu. I hate you flu! I find it very irritating to have flu. I didn't really concentrate on my history paper that much because of my flu.

After school , i rush back home and went to sleep until 3pm. When i woke up at 3pm. I prepared myself for my Listening comprehension. Overall , it was kind of easy. You just have to be more alert.

Now i'm home. I planned to do lots of things tonight like studying for bio , do my Dnt journal but all of it is just a mere wish because i don't feel like doing it now because of my flu. I feel so so tired. My heartbeat is so fast making my whole body tired. I just need to rest. Hope i'll be better by tomorrow.

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/ Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Smile! Please? Why is it so hard? Anyway i've been like feeling so tired and kind of sick. Was down with flu. Tomorrow will be my MT listening comprehension. It will begin at 5pm. I hope i won't fall asleep by then. Tomorrow is also the day of the prediction of tsunami. I hope she's safe from it. Anyway i made a pledge today.

1st pledge : To take care of her no matter what happens
2nd pledge : To protect her at all cost

Danial cheer up.

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/ Monday, July 20, 2009

Dear blog ,

I have no one to let my problems out to. Actually many of my friends are trying to cheer me up and willing to lend a listening ear but none of it really helps me. I'm used to keep my own problems but sometimes you just have to let it out and that's when i burst to anger but that's the past. I used to be a hot head but at least now i'm able to control my anger. At least it helps a bit but i'm kind of afraid that i can no longer hold what's inside me just waiting to come out.

My friend Farhan ask me to go and see a counciller but for me , i don't believe that anyone can help me right now. The only cure for my heart break disease is her to be part of my life again. Waiting is a torture but then again , no sacrifices , no victory. I'm not the type who easily quits for the thing that i want or desire or maybe i believe it's justice. I'm not a quitter. I know i can do it and i will do anything to get it.

I've been lying to people by my smile. They know under my smile was sadness and i just put up the fake smile just to make people less worried about me. I've been quite silent these few days. That's me. People can know if i have a problem , i'll be silent. That's my secret.

I just want her to be part of my life again. I just don't understand why must she ignore me when i did nothing to her? It's still puzzles me. All i can do now is wait and pray. Take care R.A.B

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LOOK AT BRIAN AND MARILYN! THEY ARE SO CUTE!

Damn! hate those paparazziS!

Jun yi! sleep only!

It's been an aduos week for me. Many things going on in my mind. I really don't know what to do. Sometimes i feel so empty inside me. Today had a maths mock exam! It's so difficult! I don't know is it me or the paper. I need to focus more on my studies! I'm trying my best to solve my problems one by one. It takes time.

There's a pain in my neck! Arghh!! Nowadays weather is so so so hot and humid.

My life is so dull nowadays. I hope the day i've been hoping for will come. Never lose hope ok dann??

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/ Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I've been busy with school lately especially during weekdays. Everynight i must stall myself with studies at least a subject. Nowadays I

slept kinda late nearly almost to 1 because I wanted to finish up my revision.

There was a time where I was sad. I prayed to God to heal my wounds or at least clear my problems. God sent me an angel from the heaven. My problems were gone when i was with her. But once her job was done , the angel fled. I thought my problems were really gone but actually it came back. I need my angel back..

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/ Sunday, July 12, 2009

it's been a while since i update my blog. Been very busy with school lately. So yea.. I'' update soonn..

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/ Friday, July 3, 2009

PICTURE OF THE GAY! I MEAN DAY!

How do you bring back the dead? Sigh. You can't and that's the problem. I can never see her anymore. All i have with me are here memories.

School was boring today. Sigh. I'm not in the mood nowadays. I may smile but inside me is different. Hiding my problems with my smile. I don't really want people to know i got problems. They can't do much anyway. There's a mixture of anger and sadness in my heart and mind. I wish to let go of it.

I injured my leg. I thought i was strong but this time round i wasn't. I was limping back home. My legs are tired from playing soccer. My knees felt loose and my ankle was nearly sprain. What a game. Sigh. Why people keep saying i play rough. At least if i play rough , it is in a good way not like i play taekwondo during soccer or what right?

Anyway 2 more days to my birthday. I realise something. I don't really look forward for my birthday like i used to. To me it's just like a normal day. Maybe it's because i'm miss someone. AAAAAHHHHHH!! Stop it Danial!

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/ Thursday, July 2, 2009

Today was a long day for me at school. It started with biology lesson. We had a practical. It was really exciting doing experiment. I can do the experiment easily but that's not the problem. The main issue is that I sometimes don't know how to answer the questions. I hope i'll be more capable of answering the question when O level arrive.

After school I had Malay oral. I was dismissed from class earlier for lunch. I was the last candidate so while waiting , I had a great time talking with Nawi , Arif and Hafiz. We had a great time. It was about 4.30 pm then it was my turn. The weird thing is i didn't panic like I used to. I told myself to chill and do my best and of course I prayed to God for help. Alhamdulilah it works. Hope i scored high marks! I was suprise when i heard all my friends said it was a difficult topic. It's like i'm the only one who said it was damn easy. I'm not boasting or whatever.

Anyway after oral. I went to the youth center near Farhan's block. Met up with Arif , Farhan , Fariz , Faris and Alim. We went to sheng shiong for a 'window shopping' after the center closes at 5.30 pm. Well that's all for today. My life is so boring right? Haha!

I don't care!

.never back down.
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/ Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Why does i feel moody or sad every night? Am i missing somebody? I can't be. Anyway today was a aduos day for me. It was NCC day too. The NCC didn't march like they used to because we weren't gathered at the parade ground because of the H1N1. I'm feeling nervouss for tomorrow's malay o level oral. In addition to my nervousness , there will be two examiners! Die! Somemore I'm the last candidate which makes more nevrous while waiting. I think tomorrow i'll be going to the toilet often. English lesson today was boring as usual. I can't believe that i slept during English period. I didn't realise that i slept. Lols. Luckily my teacher did not caught me sleeping. I ate two plates of rice during recess. All my friends were shock when i bought the second time. I feel very hungry nowadays. The last two periods of the day , we went to the computer lab to do some survey. The questions was like repeating! After school , i head for the DnT workshop to continue with my product. It's almost done. I ask for my friends rating for my product. They say out of 5 is 3.5 / 4. That's a good thing right? I hope so. I'm really nervous for my O level. My hearts keep beating faster every moment thinking about tomorrow!

Alright let's talk about my health problem. You should know that i have breathing difficulties. Somehow it's not asthma. It's called bronchitis. Something to do with the lungs. My breathing difficulty is getting worst. It's really hard for me to breathe. I tire easily too because of the lack of oxygen.

I really don't know why i'm feeling sad right now. How i wish i could just smile.

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