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/ Friday, February 27, 2009

i'm so sleepy. Ehs you know what! I am suprise myself. I've got 90 /100 for my bio test! Shakalalaka babe! haha lame sia me.. blablabal im bored k la bye

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/ Thursday, February 26, 2009

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6:03 PM

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It's been awhile since i blog. Been busy with school works. I love thursday the most because it's like the most free time day every.

Monday - Band
Tuesday - tuition
Wednesday - got band
Thursday - free
Friday - Band , guitar class & Family outing
Saturday - Band & go grandparent's house
Sunday - Religious class & finish homework + housechores

Damn i was thinking of putting gym into one of them but i simply have no time. I need to train up back. I was thinking of buying protein at GNC but it cost $190 and currently i have $18. Lols... Hmm.. I want change hp la. My camera spoil anc i can't take pic of my friends. so bored.

Hmm today i did a SBQ history test! It was so difficult. I simply can't do SBQ but i can do SEQ! After remedial i studied with Rabi'atul , suaidah , musfirah as usual. Ramdan was there too but he wasn't studying. Wilfred study with others! Pangseh us! After that we go out to eat. Had a great laugh because i was providing lame stuff with them. I becoming more and more lame at times sey! hahahaha!

When i got home , i saw my sista bf outside my house! I was like fuck la. What he doing here. When i ask him that , he said that he was waiting for my sista. And my sister was like inside my house watching TV. Then i called my mom and tell her that he's outside. My mom talk to my sis dunno what and after that he's gone.

Totally dispise of him sey! If he want fight i'm ready for you! So what if u tall! I got more advantage ok. I bite your dick off lor!!

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/ Monday, February 23, 2009

Day 6 and i'm still sick. Well i have a slight fever at times , but the most irritating things is i keep having my noseblock! It feels so uncomfortable as i can't breathe in well and it will increase my heartbeat rate because not enough oxygen enters my body. Thus it will make me feel tired.

Anyway , i scored 9/12 for m history SEQ test! Wohoo! It's my first time and i didn't study at all! Wow! I so damn happy sey! oh ya talking bout happy! Yesterday night i dreamt bout her sey! Still can remember what's the dream about! I woke up with all smiles on my face. Haha! Wth! It's just a dream. hmm... Tomorrow i will be having my sosial studies SEQ test as usual every tuesday. Standard procedure! Well i'm studying for the test right now.

Hmm.. This weekend i plan to do my DnT Journal. The research everything. We're on ideation now. Hmm.. Need to catch up.

Hmm.. Well today i went for band. Went for sectional torch dance. Damn! the fast fast part i still can't really run! Sometimes i can , sometimes i can't! It's really not constant. How i wish i can play like my tutor or maybe a kashiwa player! Wowowowow! Dream on? haha! Oh yesh then in band room ms chan suddenly called me. I thought i did something wrong sey. Haha! but she told me that she want try play the English horn solo back! Aaaahhhh!!! shit! shit! shit! but i'll do my best!

hmm.. ok that's about all.. Tmr got run . hope i'm healthy enough to run. (:

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/ Sunday, February 22, 2009

ouch i hurt my spine. It's been a while since i practice my martial arts since i'm sick! haha! started practicing today and it hurt me. ==

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9:55 PM

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Hmm.. What happened today? I finish up my homework by 2.30 pm as plan. Well actually not really. I didn't do English because i was kind of lazy. Hmm.. went to the library with pheobe , rabi'atul and her two siblings , nayven , jaime and jonathan. I kind of join them at a later time because i wanted to finish my work before i go to the library.

When i reach there , i was halted by a man asking me for a youth survey. After awhile , he diverted his intentions into telling me about christianity. Now i know his intentions. Well i turn him down. Actually i said to him , you have your own beliefs , i have my own so sir i'm very sorry as i'm not trying to be rude , i'm a muslim and you can't change me ever. After that i said that i shake his hand and he smiled back at me. Come on la. Haha!

Then after talk to him , saw the group outside library already. They wanted to eat but i went to the library first as i had to touch up my homework which i didn't because i ended up playing my psp! haha! wth!

Hmm.. then pheobe and rab(with two siblings) join me. Nayven they all don't know go where. We studied at the basement where the children section is. I was playing psp while they were studying! Lols.. Rabi'atul lil bro was a hyper kid sey! haha he keeps running around and Rab have to take care of him! haha! She's like a mother sey! haha! wth..

hmm.. I still cough! My flam still have ler.. I still have slight fever. I still have blocknose. It makes me hard to breathe. Lols.. Hmm.. i think that's about all. Oh yah! I sign up for sports day event as usual it's the 4x100m race! Confirm win la coz it has been 4 years straight we won a medal. Muahaha! Defending champion! haha!

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9:16 PM

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Hey! I'm starting to recover! Wohoo! The hero is back on track! Yesterday i night i went to my Grandma house which was just a few blocks away from mine. I ate lots of rice and drank lots of water too cool down my temperature. Well i guessed it works out for me.

Today didn't went to Religious class. Wilfred asked me out to go bowling with them. Which the ''them'' i don't know who does it refer to.Well i turn down his request because i wanted to finish up my homework and study. Well O levels this year. Wish me luck! I suddenly had so many aims in my life. Hahahas! Wilfred urged me to go but i still turn him down anyways. He said that bowling can release your stress. Hmm.. I think the other way round because i everytime go bowling with them use my money first. Then pay me back late. Then add up to my stress. Well maybe after o levels then we go bowling ok guys?

Today's plan:

-clear flam in my throat
-wash my school shoe
-eat lots of food
-drink plenty of water
-finish up homework
-touch up on my DnT journal
-Revise like hell
-all must be done before 2.30pm

alright guys got to go!

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10:16 AM

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/ Saturday, February 21, 2009

Is it me or the prata i ate for breakfast taste like vomit. I think it's me. I'm still sick. Hmm.. From wednesday till now haven't recovered. 4 days straight. Lols.. I didn't went for band today. In the morning my temperature was kind of hot and i thought it would be better but end up that my temperature was drastically rising. Didn't do much at home. I want to study but i've no mood to study. I mostly sleep at home. Yesterday night i had migrane. Oh man! my lightbulb spoilt. My room was in total darkness , while not exactly total.

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/ Friday, February 20, 2009

Today's headline. Danial saves a cat! Early in the morning , I saved a cat from hitting down by a car. Yahoo! What a heroic act! I was walking towards school when i saw a cat crossing the road. At the corner of my right eye , i saw a car that was making it's way to the cat. I ran to the cat as fast as possible and stop the car. Wow! I was like with great power , comes great responsibility. Nice work Dan!

I'm so freaking sick right now sey. I'm down with a high fever , flu , sore throat and cough. This morning I woke up with a fever but I still wanted to go to school as i would not want to miss anything important things on my studies.

Mrs Wong showed us a clip on abortion. It was so freaking disgusting and cruel thing to do. Farhan was like screaming across the class as he comlained that his penis was in pain due to watching the video. I was at the back almost half dead watching the blood oozing out the vagina. Oh my god! It was so damn yucks man. Now i know how they abort a baby.

I was praised by Mrs Foo today. But she scolded me for using broken English. Lols. At last i'm good at something but suck at it. Lols. During maths , i was lying my head down on my table most of the time. I was so damn sick and hungry at that moment. Suddenly Mrs Poh ask me a question and i wasn't paying attention. Her question was what is 3-1 = ? , and i said 4? what the hell. It was Eugene who prank me. But nevermind.

Didn't go for my friday prayers and band today. I went straight home and sleep throughout the afternoon till evening. When i woke up , i'm still down with fever. Arghhh.. Hope i'll get better by tomorrow. If not , i'll miss my tutor lesson and combine practice. Today was such a miserable day for me. =(

Today i'd planned to eat two bowls of rice for recess. After the first round of rice , i already felt so sick so i went up to class and rest. Oh yahs , today morning Jaz said something to me. I was like daydreaming with her words during the pledge in the morning through out the process. Damn it! Then i found out that she was just joking! I thought real sey. I want kill you Jaz! Arghh! haha!

Today i realised something. All my past wishes that i ever wish for actually came true without me noticing about it. But not all have come true.

Mom declared that every friday to be a Family day. It's the time where all my family members which the 4 of us will go out and eat. Hmm.. eat! eat! eat! Yummy.. Tonight , we planned to go adam road to eat. Hmm.. Hope i'm strong enough to survive the day.

I dreamt about someone today. She was just talking to me. Talk and talk. Should have seen her smile on her face. Damn i miss her.. Rabi'atul said that if you've forgotten a dream that you dreamt before . It will come true in your life. But i really don't believe in this. Do you?

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/ Thursday, February 19, 2009

This is the worst encounters i ever had. When i woke around 1 plus. I had a blocknose! Oh my god! I can only breathe by only one nosetrill. Aaaahhh! I can't breathe that well. So scary le. I keep going to the toilet. My mother made me hot tea to relief my nose and it did. Phew. Finally i can breathe again. But still i had runny nose.

Things to do:
-Bring health booklet tmr
-Reveise Physics & Biology
-Study maths
-Read story books

Damn.. Tomorrow i got guitar class at 6pm! Hmm.. Was thinking of going to the gym after that. Well see my mood first. Oh yahs anyway i kept doing the flipping thingy and i'm already used to pain. Haha! Guess pain won't affect me anymore. XD

What! My dad bought a Ipod Touch! Wow! Then never buy for me sey. =( Haha! I see him using it so jealous la. Haha but nevermund la. Next time when i work i buy all the cool stuff for myself! muahahaha!

Hmm.. My new ambition starting for today.

-Study like hell!
-Eat like hell!
-Go gym like hell!
-Don't go to hell!

Arghh! I'm still coughing sey! It makes my tears come out from my eyes as if like i'm crying like that! and my flu too. I feel so miserable sey.You know what. Just now i vomit and then i swallowed it back in. Err.. disgusting rite.i'm so sick right now..

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8:39 PM

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I want to :

-Thank Azimah's mom for the cupcake
-Kill Azimah for tearing up my maths revision booklet!

grrr!!

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6:36 PM

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Hi guys! I'm still sick today. In the morning when i woke up , my temperature was kind of okay. After i bath , then it started to rise up again. Hmm.. I don't have the mood to take my breakfast too. Only ate one currypuff. On the way to school , i kept coughing. Reach school around 7.10. I lost my voice in the morning. Mrs Wong gave us a quiz on sexual reproduction in humans. I got 4/10. Great! Now what. Hmm.. She thought us about the female parts in sexual reproduction. I really don't quite get it because i'm not use to female's private parts! In addition , she thought us about the mensuration. I wasn't really paying attention because when she started to teach , my body started to be weak already because she mention about blood! Well , i have a phobia of blood. Hmm.. I starting to find maths to be easy again. Thanks to the people around me that has help me or teach me.

-Rahayu
-Rabi'atul
-Nabilah

After school , we had a Maths Common test. I find it very simple. I hope i'll get back my 1st position in maths! Anyway during the maths test , I started to be sick again and i had infected with flu! Arghh! So irritating. I need a cure fast!

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/ Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Arghh! I'm sick guys. This morning i woke up , my body was very hot. I still went to school though if not my mom will nag and nag at me. Sigh.. Today i was like so sick sey. Kept coughing real bad. Hmm.. Today i thought of not going to band because i'm sick. But then i decided to go as i thought would be better by then. But then , it made me worst. I'm feeling so hot. Really hot. Cough also getting worst. Anyway my scars on my face is starting to heal. Hope it won't leave a mark after it is heal. Damn sey. I miss her loadz! i mean as a friend. Blablabla.. I'm so sleepy now. Lucky today no homework. Oh yes! I got 7/12 for my Sosial Studies SEQ! Wow! I didn't study a thing and i passed! Cool la sey! I'm starting to like humanities now. Hmm.. Sick sick sick. Wish me to get better soon k.. Lols

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/ Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Hmm.. Today's tuesday. PE lesson today got to play free game. Hmm.. played soccer for awhile. Then after that i went off to play basketball. Hmm.. Today is really kind of boring too. I didn't do my morning run. I was sick. My throat is damn sore. I kept coughing. Cough blood.. Cey no lahs. Just normal cough bcoz i ate the choclate Rabiatul gave me. Lols... Hmm.. What happened next?

English lesson was such a bore as usual. I always felt sleepy during her lesson. During mother tongue we continued with our composition. I end my paper earlier. Then i kind of look at Ms Siti. Trying to figure out why the sec 3s call her ayam(chicken in malay). Then i came to realise yea. She look a bit like ayam. Busted!

Hmm.. Today's sosial studies test. Hmm.. I didn't study. Well most of us didn't study actually. I just trash out all the things i know about globalization. Hope i pass with flying colours! Hahaha.. Never study still hoping to pass with flying colours sey. Let's move on to physics remedial. Mr Tsu is on reservice so he sent a relief teacher. She gave us worksheet to do as usual. While doing , Kamal and Ryan kept talking about sex. Actually just Kamal. He kept asking Ryan about his experience of his sex life. Then Kamal ask Ryan to find for him a sex partner. I was in the middle of the two of them. I was like wth Kamal! You're so desperate. Wait till marriage la bro. No hurry. Save your verginity.

After school i went to buy oat milk for myself. Haha.. Maybe it can help me to grow taller?
I've never taste it before. It was quite nice. Hmm.. And it add on to my sore throat too.
I reach home around 5.30 i think. And then i don't know do what and then i went to sleep. Woke up at about 7.30pm. And i only got 30 more mins to bath and everything before my tuition starts.

During tuition i didn't talk much because of more sore throat. My teacher says today i looked like i'm in a daze. Haha! Ya i'm in a daze. My mind was not here. It was somewhere else. Haha kept thinking about you know who la. Learnt new topic. Vector. Hmm.. Ok i've decided from today onwards not to on my computer so ofter because it will distract me from studying. Must make my move too.. Alright that's all. Bye

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/ Monday, February 16, 2009

Today i had nightmares during my sleep. I dreamt that i lost all my loved ones. When i woke up, my heart was beating very fast and i was like thinking , is this for real? How would you feel if your love ones are gone?

I was day dreaming mostly. My heart is calling out for her. Everytime i tried to move further from her , my heart grew closer to her. I can't seem to know why. The past had haunted me down. After what happened between us , It's like a dream. but why? Is it going to be a happy ending? sigh i don't know. How i wish i could tell her how i feel about her. I keep imagining her in my mind. Her smiles just lift up my heart. One day maybe , maybe... If only..

Oh yahs today i played soccer. And my '' friends'' kept calling me names! What is the matter with them?! Why must they disturb and hurt me? I don't call you names , why must you! They kept shouting across the fields. I was like boiling right there under the sun. But then i cooled down. I keep telling myself to be patients. I don't get anything if i'm angry. They call me names , they will have their punishment. but sometimes it's really over the limit you know. Can't you just respect me as a friend. hehs.. you call yourself a friend?

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8:47 PM

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Hmm.. What should i describe about today. Boring! Lols.. The weather today was flipity hot! haha is there such word is flipity? I don't know. After remedial i had english common test. I think i'll fail the test. Coz i wasn't putting any effort in it. Then after school i went to play soccer. I wanted to go band actually but i simply can't resist playing soccer. Then after awhile it started to rain , so i went home but in the end it didn't rain. Hmm.. The weather is weird today. Oh yea i forgot to do something today. Maybe tomorrow then i'll do. Shit la! Tmr got Sosial studies test. I'm sure most of my classmates will cheat but i don't want to. I'm a honest person. Cey! Mcm paham.. Haha.. In class today really nothing special. I get restless so easily sey.. Feel like walking around the school and disturb people because i'm bored. That's me. Hmm.. i think i'm gonna sleep for a while to save my energy for tonight. I need to study for SS and do some homework.. Bye

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5:34 PM

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/ Sunday, February 15, 2009

Hmm.. I got nothing to say. I'm very very very bored and very very very hungry. K la bye bye bye

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my face fierce siak!

Me and Kamal the dark knight

shit here!

Farhan! So gay!

i think this shot we wasn't prepared or something. I don't remember taking this. Haha

Can someone spot me?! im beside Nawi

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/ Saturday, February 14, 2009

sigh.. i got scolded by mom again. She keeps shouting at me sey. Why can't she talk to me nicely. Sometimes i feel like running away from home you know! Arghh.. maybe someday.

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9:19 PM

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Oh yes one last thing! I want to thank to those who gave me Valentine gift!

-Manissa
-Siew qin
-Rabiatul
-some more who uhs? I forget.. Haha thanks la kentot!

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6:34 PM

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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! and also HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAMDAN!

hmm.. My leg still hurt despite of yesterday's flipping up thingy and my back hurts too! Today i didn't fall in. Actually i wanted to but my leg just don't allow me to! Damn! So i asked the secretary if they got anything for like muscle stretch or ache. And they ask me back if i want the damn hot one or not so hot. So i answered damn hot one la because i want to speed up my recovery. So i rub the cream at my injured area twice! And it's like damn freaking hot! What the hack but the pain became wrost! What the hack! Hope tomorrow my leg will be fine. I can't move my leg much or else it will be very pain.

Hmm.. Today's we side read a new piece called 76 trombones. I hate that piece not because it's trombone but the song is like kiddy kiddy song! I hate happy type of songs. I like the sad , emo , war type like that kind you know.

Anyway she came. Was wondering when she would come. Oh man i keep looking at her. Hmm anyway after lunch break we got combine for people who are going for SYF. I was kind of sad sey. Ms Chan ask me not to play for Overture 2. She ask me to play torch dance only. sad sey.. Why i join oboe?! So regret.. I should be in percusion or sax or something..

When we played torch dance , my mood totally change. I think you guys can see from my face. Hmm.. My English horn reed keep getting smaller and smaller and this makes me very hard to play louder and whenever i play low note will become high note! What the hack sey.

Then me and Manissa went to sectional Torch Dance first while the band was combining Overture no. 2. Actually Manissa wasn't practicing at all. She was just erasing and writing don't know what thing on her score and complaining that Torch Dance is so boring. Hahas. Can say la.

The after a while i saw her and her. Oh man they're going home aleady. Rahayu tell me that they're going off. And i was like staring at her friend and i was also staring into blank space! In my mind i was like Oh man! You guys are going already! I was just about to give you guys your valentine presents sey. Then they went off. That's the last time i saw her today. Never say anything to me. =.='

Anyway then i practice the fast fast part! Arghh!! It's so damn fast and i'm new to english horn some more! Then after that i felt tired so i went to sleep for a while. Actually i was just lying my head down on the table. Then after a while , Manissa was like knocking the table trying to signal me something . Then suddenly Ramdan was behind me! What the hack then he test me on my Torch Dance. Nevermind la it's a good thing he test. I clarify with him some problems i don't know about the rhythm or timing or whatever. Hmm...

Alright today i went home straight because later i'm going out to my Grandparent's house. I walk home emoing.. Seriously la sey. I want play overture!! Let me play soccer or overture? Hurry choose!

Oh yes! I went home and cut my fringe again. Waliao! they keep saying my frige long la touch eyebrow la.. School never say anything you guys kpo for what.. Haiyo i never disturb ur life mah. What am i talking.. K la.. See ya later aligator! =)

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/ Friday, February 13, 2009

Today was such a hot day! It started with our IPP training. My group of the left back window. It's the neatest seal window among the other because my group got me what. Haha! We were like stuffing in the class for like 1 hour before we on the fan. The class to take some class photo. We had fun! Haha!

After school I went for friday prayers as usual. After that at 3pm i went for my guitar class. Haha! My tutor was so funny. It's been a while since i touch a guitar. Arghh!! I was like not used to it already. My hand was like cramp up! After that my guitar class i went for band and i reach school ard 4.30pm. By the time , the band was already over. I was like sweating when i reached school.

I played soccer for a while.. And i found out who's the person who spread stuff! The culprit! Urghh.. Nvm las..

After that we went to celebrate Ramdan's birthday. It is tmr actually but we celebrate it today.

At night , when to JP with Nab, faiz and rad. Was looking for gifts for tomorrow. I wanted to buy a flower but it's too costly. Maybe after my o level when i got a job then i can afford.

k la it's late night already. I better go and sleep now.

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10:36 PM

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/ Thursday, February 12, 2009

Today didn't went to the library or study up with friends. I was too tired after carrying some boxes across some blocks. I slept around 6.30pm and woke about 8 pm. By the time i woke up.. It's already late to go out. Hmm.. I'm so hungry.. Maybe i'll gonna take my 2nd round of dinner later on. I want grow tall!!! Why i'm not growing.. Jump? Nak jadi tinggi!!! =(

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8:56 PM

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Zzz.. Today i felt sleepy again. Haha! Yesterday sleep late i think. Thn this morning also got morning jog. Maybe it adds up to my sleepyness. Physics today got test! So damn easy! Confirm full marks. Mother tongue lesson today went to the school library. At least something. Funny stuff happens at the library! Damn funny la sey! Had a really great laugh.

After remedial , i wanted to play soccer but then the shuqun pri are using it because they had a match. Damn it! Hmm..

I still haven't get a life. Life is so boring. Oh yahs.. I got 10/20 for maths! What the hack seh.. I'm really dropping sey.. Come on Danial! You can do it... i think.. hehs.

I'm so tired now. I think i will sleep for a while. k la anything message me..

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/ Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Mental note for myself :

-Keep everything to myself.
-Don't expect too much.
-Never assume
-Don't rush into things.
-Relax.. chill.. don't panic.
-forgive and forget.
-cannot tahan.. run away!

blablablablabla.. i'm so bored!! i need to get a life! hmm.. tomorrow night i want go library study! Who want to follow me??

anyway guys.. i think my health problem is falling. Recently i feel that my heart is like not constant and it keeps beating fast and then slow.. all of a sudden it vibrates sometimes. And it makes me cough.. I feel so scared. hope i'll be alright..

Some random questions i want to ask below.

Will anyone cry for me if i'm gone?
Will anyone miss me if i'm gone?
Will anyone rememebr me if i'm gone?

i hope there will be.. hehs..

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9:48 PM

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Hmm.. I woke up early in the morning today. So sleepy because I usually wake up at 6.45pm except when i have my morning jog. Met Ramdan on the way to school. (we are 100% straight) Waited outside the band room for leader's to open but i think they forgotten. So we slack outside the band room andchat among ourselves. blablabla...

In class today i did'nt talk much. Maybe i'm still heartbroken? I really don't know or maybe i'm too tired.. I almost wanted to sleep during English.. So sleepy. And then Sosial Studies too but we had to do essay. I thought Ms Kasturi would teach on venice so that i can sleep but she did'nt. I walk across the class bcoz i felt like i had no life. really. And Ms Kasturi asked me why am i walking like a lost soul? Hehs.. Lost soul ehs? Maybe i'm lost inside. I need to get back on the right track!

Maths lesson was boring too. I was so not in the mood to study. I got 16/30 for maths test. What happen to me? I used to be the 1st for maths but now.. I am really not prepared for O level. I hope i can still buck up.. Come on Danial! Today i'm mostly feeling lazy and bored.

Band was quite great today except for some mistakes here and there. Still can be improved either. After band wrote something on the Valentine's Day Board outside the OM office. Haha!
Got to know someone like someone.. Can't tell ya!

Anyway today is Sebestian's Birthday! Happy Birthday Sebestian! May all your wishes come true ok!

Hmm.. I still got loadz of things to do.. I really don't feel like doing it. Urgh!! Nvm la i'll get over it soon. I hope so.. sigh

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7:36 PM

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/ Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Today I had my maths tuition. I felt so stressful at times.. Sometimes feel like giving up. Argh!! So stress! Oh yah! Today's bio test! so difficult.. Maybe i did'nt study.. tomorrow i heard got history test!! Argh! And english homework i don't want to do. I don't have the mood really. Nowadays i feel that life is so empty and there's no life in it. I can't wait to go to afterlife.. i hope i will go to heaven..

My eyes set my tears free again. I have totally no mood to do anything. Usually when i'm bored i will sms people or disturb.. but now i really have no mood to do anything. And the spammers on my tagboard plz stop it.

No mood No mood No mood...Tmr go school i would most probabily kept myself shut.. as promise..

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10:36 PM

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Today was a tiring day for me. It starts with physics. Yea. Point out to Mr Tsu's mitake about the flaming left hand thingy. Cey.. Proffessor Danial.. Lame.. Anyway today's Sosial Studies test was postphone to next week. Lucky for me because I did'nt know that there was a test. Anyway i had no time to study too. So many things to do. Band , Dnt coursework , Homeworks , Tuitions. Sigh.. How i wish i can slow down the clock or something you know.

Today morning jog i ran 4 rounds around the school compund. I want to start building up my stamina. Today's PE lesson we are suppose to sprint around the field for a total of 5 rounds and i really mean SPRINT! Every round we're suppose to rest for 2 mins. After 5 rounds , Mr Au instruct us to measure our heartbeat rate. Mine was 136 beats per minute. I hope Mr Au's training pays off.

Today after recess I helped Mrs Foo to carry some books to class. Very kind of me right. Of course Danial what. LOL! During English.. I almost slept. So tiring. Azimah keep disturbing me. Grrr... She said something that hurt me so much and kept me quiet for quite some time. .

Anyway after school I went for a DNT Seminar at Nanyang Poly. The presentations was very cool. I sat beside Jun yi again. He keep sleeping man! I think he's not interested. The seminar had motivated me on my studies really. How i wish i got the time to study. Maybe tonight i'm going to sleep kind of late if i got the energy to stay awake.

How I wish i already in Polytechnic. The school is so big and cool! Sigh.. Still got one more year for me. Nevermind. Cheong all the way! Then can enjoy after that. Anyway i just found out that my handphone spoilt. I can't take pictures with my camera. So sad.. I'm out of cash too.. Anyway Valentine's Day is coming..

Who want be my Valentine?

Oh yah! Who tag my tagboard? What Obama all.. Hmm.. Maybe it's the lame Jin Rong.. Maybe.. I don't know. Better owe up.. Spam only..

Later tonight still got Math's tuition. I don't think i can absorb much information tonight. After my tuition i want to do a bit of DnT. I really need to pass my O level! I want to go to Poly! Maybe engineering or design course or maybe sciences. Haven't made up my mind. Nvm still long way to go. Right?

Before I forget. Today is Wei Ping Birthday. Oh yah! He and Chen hui keep raping people in the bus on the way to NYP. Molester. Anyway HAPPY BIRTYDAY WEI PING!

My heart still slowing down a bit. I don't know why but I thought the crisis was over? Or maybe or not. I still sense something was out of place but I can't run into conclusion.. I must investigate? I really don't know. I'm so confuse.. Chill Danial..

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/ Monday, February 9, 2009

Life is full of ups and downs. Sigh.. What did i spread? Are you sure it's me? You can't jump into conclusion you know. Anyway , I did forgive you already. I am really sorry of what i did to you. I really am. I really want you to be happy even to the extent of not having me inside your life. I thought you lied. but i'm the one who's in fault. I'm really x 100000 sorry.. If only i could make it up to you.

but i'm really really hurt. I felt my heartbeat really stop but it still goes on why?? i can't think so much about you.. come on Danial.. Give it up will you!! Can i? Arghh!!

Today i let off some tears in class but i hide it by laughing to myself so no one would notice.. No one cares anyway. Life is a place you can't trust nobody. Everyone's the same. And that Khairul guy.. Sigh! Don't you ever assume anymore! It will only bring more problems to yourselves.

Danial be patient. I'm sure there will be a miracle behind all this. I'm very sure. Just wait and see.. Just relax ok Danial.. Why am i talking to myself.. =(

I'll pray for ur happiness in life... goodbye

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/ Sunday, February 8, 2009

tell me it wasn't real.. I juz find out a terrible truth today. I swear my heart stop when i read her blog today. but why am i still alive? i should be dead by now. my tears ran down as soon i read it. my hands felt so weak. my world have been destroyed. my heart crushed. tell me what i did wrong.. all i did was to love u with a sincere heart and expect nothing in return. what did i do... do i deserve this??

i jus saw her true colours today. I've been blinded by love all this while.. oh god.. is this a test from you? if it is.. plz give me amnesia.. plz i can't bear it.. i am really lost rite now. what did i do!!!!!!!! life is so cruel.. i see now! humans are so heartless.. i have no more to say.. i wish i'm no more.. this blog is terminated.. till a new beginning

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We are the Warriors! LoL What the hack

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I went for religious class today. Learn something interesting. I learn not to judge things so quickly. In a judge , they must have these qualities. Honesty , Trustworthy , Responsibility and Patience. I must plant all these characteristics in me.

Anyway I had migrane in the afternoon. I slept for like 2 hours and when i woke up , I still had it. Nowadays , life is so plain boring for me sometimes. I can't seems to stop daydreaming about life. Guess my mind has so much things going on. Sigh..

What am I to do now? Should I pause and continue later on in life? I'm so confuse right now. please guide me through all these...

Anyway I'm so bored today. I did mostly nothing today. At 5pm , went to cut my hair. After that I ask my friend to hang out with me for a while. The three of us walk to boon lay shopping centre and talk nonsense. It's been a while since we hang out. On the way , we took some pictures.. Later I post. Tonight my mom did'nt cook anything. I'm like starving sey.. Then now i no mood to do anything even my homework.

Life is so boring sey...

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/ Friday, February 6, 2009

Life is so full of mysteries yet to be solve. See how beautiful God's creation are. Anyway , today's school life was a fine day for me. Azimah and Syamsiah did'nt came. Can't disturb them. Anyway English lesson was great and so were the rest. During Bio , Mrs Wong was angry with us because most of us wrote rubbish answer for our tests. I've got 18/30. Was quite dissapointed with my results. Anyway I did'nt studied real hard for the test either. CME lesson was great too. We decorated our classroom. I can how hardworking the class were but there were some lazy bums too.

After today , I learnt something. Nothing. WTF! Today after band , I went home early to go for my Guitar class but when i was about to leave the house, my tutor text me that today's lesson was cancel as he can't make but he promise to have 2 hour for next week! Haha! I'm sure we going to have fun! Everytime after his class i feel so happy. Maybe the music we played together comes from my heart as we had to create our own solo according to our feeling.

After that I went to school as I heard that we had to pack up everything. Something's happening. OMG! Anyway after that we went Mc Donald and had some dinner. While on the way to Mc , I saw my sister and her Boyfriend. I feel like bashing him up sey but nevermind lahs. It's not worth it.. Is it?

Anyway after I waited for Rabiatul outside school but she ask me to go in. Coz she ask me to share my problems with her but she advise me to tell Mrs Wong about it. So I did. I just want the band to understand me and hope they will not add on to my problems. Mrs Wong advise me to stay positive if i have problems and when i'm ready , I can share with her my family problems but I won't. I can't always stay positive you know because the result won't be positive! Sigh... Anyway next week i'm going to talk to Mrs Wong again. So after the parents meeting session with sec 1. Kind of went home with Rabiatul and Nabilah. So I got back around 10pm?

Yea anyway what is wrong with my mom! She keep shouting across the house. Sigh.. I hate coming home.

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/ Thursday, February 5, 2009

Err.. What happened today? I've forgotten. Wait , let me recall alright. Oh yes! In the morning , it started with a bright and cheerful day during bio lesson. Had fun talking about sexual reproduction in plants. Friends make stupid funny jokes but I did'nt because i'm a mature guy already. Cey Danial sey.. Wth.. Anyway I got back my maths result. Gotten 70%. Oh man.. I'm deproving but the second test i gotten 100%. Congrats to me. Anyway today's History remedial we did a test. Most of us don't understand the what the question was asking about and above all, the time limit was so scarce.

Anyway today was Ain's sweet sixteen birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIN! sorry no present Ain coz i'm in debt

Then after remedial i felt kind of hungry. Sms some of my friends to join me but most of them were at home. My classmates had tuition so I can't eat with them. So I went to play today. It's been awhile since I played soccer. I had so many chances of scoring but all them missed the target. Only scored 1 today. I was kind of off form today. Maybe i'm not focus enough or lack of training. But at least it was fun right?

Anyway I got back from home and mom scolded me! Sigh.. I know it's my Fucking sister's boyfriend who make up story about me. He told my mom that he saw me with a girl outsde! WTF YOU SON OF A BITCH! I was at school playing soccer you mother fucker! Sigh.. And my mom also! Never see me still can believe him! What proof does he have! You can ask Khairul! Asshole! $@#@$!!#@!

You know something guys. Sometimes i feel like running away from my house. They don't even care anyway. They keep looking down on me. No matter how quiet i am at home, they still find trouble with me. Sigh.. I'm really heartbroken. More and more i feel like i'm going to lead a dark life soon. Mixing with bad companies all that stuff. I've been enduring for all this time but i have my limits right? =( I really love them but at times I really dispise them. Why can't they just understand me?

Maybe one day , I will not be in this world anymore and that is when you guys will have your peace. I just figured out what my friends saying me that i'm a change man. I know i changed but i simply can't find the answer and today i did.

If i'm no longe0r in this world, I hope you guys will not lead the same life as me and may the best to you guys.

.never back down.
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/ Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Today was a hilarious day for me. We make fun of people especially Kamal! Haha! He's such a fat joker man! No offence! He's not reading this anyway.. blablabla.. I'm bored. Disturb Azimah a lot also. Who ask her to sit beside me. Made friends with Khairul. Guess what I got for my Sosial Studies SEQ test. 8/12! Wohoo! Stead la Danial! Wiwit!! I started to chiong for band and my studies too! Ms Chan today played torch dance without stopping today. Seems so short sey. I can here some messyness everywhere! So irritating! When will the band can sounds good! Talking about this! Shit I have so many things to do today.

Nowadays at night i can't really sleep. Ofter bitten by mosquito. Maybe i'm a sweet person! It's all in my blood! haha!! Curse you bloodsuckers! Alright! That's all! Want to study for test tomorrow! Nitez XD

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/ Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Today was a fine day for except for one event that happen to me in school. Got back my physics class test. I scored 90/100. Cey steady la Danial! Hahaha! Then today P.E , my class did a beep test! Haha! I'm the first in my class la sey! Level 9,4 you know! But still i'm not up to David Beckham standard. Today recess, I fought with Hafiz.. Wth! He was kinda in a bad mood. Don't know why. So I tried to cheer him up but instead he find problem with me. Then I was like kinda fuck up too with him. Then i say to him '' eh you not happy come beat me now uhs! '' '' I scared uhs'' then i was like fed up I took on my leave and push him away! Omg! I regretd doing that man. How could I? I mean I'm not used to hurting others by physical force. Sigh... Anyway let bygones be bygones.. Haiyo.. k la! Nitez bloggers!

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/ Monday, February 2, 2009

Hi guys! Kind of boring for me today. In the morning I met Ramdan at the playground near my house because he has to pass me a A4 exercise book to me which i needed it. Then while walking to school we talk. Yah and why is everybody pastering me to make my move! Come on guys. I'm the chill-relax type of guys. No hurry man. Some more I don't think it's the perfect time to sound her. Maybe when i'm 20+ years old or something. So yea chill.

In school today got nothing happening much just that Azimah keep sniffing her nucleus out of her nose! Hahaha!! Noisy seh! haha!! Anyway DnT lesson today went to the Computer Lab 1 to do our coursework. Sat beside Jun Yi again. Hahaha! He keep playing stupid game on the net. Hahaha! Wth! I read her blog today. OMG! Her story was almost the same as mine. Was scolded by mom and bad day all that but I think she has a more major problems than me. I felt pity for her really. How I wish I could cheer her up. I know parents nowadays can't be trusted. I've been through before. They always want us to share our problems with them but in the they will make our problems worst. This is why I don't share problems. Anyway I hope she's fine but I don't think so. Want to cheer her up thru sms but I'm afraid it would contradicts with my intention.
=( I will pray for her always to be happy. If you're reading this , I want to tell you that I really care for you.

Alright! Anyway I got an idea for what I'm going to do for my DnT! Can't tell ya people! Hahaha! I got the idea from Rahayu! Thanks so much sista lurp! WTH! I hope the idea will bring me my A1. Muahahahaha!!

Today before remedial , Madeline , Vivian , Mevis and Kai Jun took our bags just because we say that Chelsea sucks! Hahaha! Anyway Chelsea loss to Liverpool. The score is 2-0. Take that Chelsea fans! Hahaha! Sorry don't mean it.. bluek! Then Mrs Foo scolded me too! Hahaha! She said that I used kindergarten English! Wth! She was so funny limping all that but she's a good teacher of course.

After remedial lesson , I went to band for awhile and then I quickly head home because I had to finish up my DnT research and I wanted to revise my Maths and SS. Alright that's all! Astala Vista!

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/ Sunday, February 1, 2009

Cool or not??!! Say yes!! haha!!

Making stupid faces!!

Candid!!

Suhaidah bored already.. haha!

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Corners of messy room!

my room.. Messy uh?!

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Today totally suck man! In the morning already mom nag at me. So irritating sia. She treat me like a kid. I know what i'm doing ok. Please la. I'm 16 already. Sigh... Then i went religious class also no mood. After religious class , I went to smoke with my friend. Was thinking of quiting soon .Sometimes i feel like i want to quickly grow older and start my own life.

Today also went out with Jin Rong , Wilfred and suhaidah. I went to Jin Rong house first. Then after that went to JP for a while because i need to buy fresh milk. See a lot of Bangladeshi. Can't seem to spot Kumar though. Anyway when i got home. Mom nag again! Irritating! HELLO IM 16 la!!!!

urgh!! This is why i never talk at home. I'm like a library when i'm with them. I'm not going to tell them any thing from now onwards because i thought they are open minded kind of person. They are so old fashion. Just keep everything to myself already. More and more day i feel like drifting myself away and lead a bad life like those gangsters out there. Actually they should appreciate me what! as i'm not like those fucking gangsters out there. Now i'm turning to be like them because of you guys! sigh.. I have no more to say already

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